We come into being as a slight thickening at the end
of a long thread. Cells proliferate, become an excrescence, assume the
shape of a man. The end of the thread now lies buried within, shielded,
inviolate. Our task is to bear it forward, pass it on. We flourish for
a moment, achieve a bit of singing and dancing, a few memories we would
carve in stone, then we wither, twist out of shape. The end of the
thread lies now in our children, extends back through us, unbroken,
unfathomably into the past. Numberless thickenings have appeared on it,
have flourished and have fallen away as we now fall away. Nothing
remains but the germ-line. What changes to produce new structures as
life evolves is not the momentary excrescence but the hereditary
arrangements within the thread.
We are carriers of
spirit. We know not how nor why nor where. On our shoulders, in our
eyes, in anguished hands through unclear realm, into a future unknown,
unknowable, and in continual creation, we bear its full weight. Depends
it on us utterly, yet we know it not. We inch it forward with each beat
of heart, give to it the work of hand, of mind. We falter, pass it on
to our children, lay out our bones, fall away, are lost, forgotten.
Spirit passes on, enlarged, enriched, more strange, complex.
We
are being used. Should not we know in whose service? To whom, to what,
give we unwitting loyalty? What is this quest? Beyond that which we
have what could we want? What is spirit?
A river or a
rock, writes Jacques Monod, “we know, or believe, to have been molded
by the free play of physical forces to which we cannot attribute any
design, any ‘project’ or purpose. Not, that is, if we accept the basic
premise of the scientific method, to wit, that nature is objective and
not projective.”
That basic premise carries a powerful
appeal. For we remember a time, no more than a few generations ago,
when the opposite seemed manifest, when the rock wanted to fall, the
river to sing or to rage. Willful spirits roved the universe, used
nature with whim. And we know what gains in understanding and in
control have come to us from the adoption of a point of view which
holds that natural objects and events are without goal or intention.
The rock doesn’t want anything, the volcano pursues no purpose, river
quests not the sea, wind seeks no destination.
But there
is another view. The animism of the primitive is not the only
alternative to scientific objectivity. This objectivity may be valid
for the time spans in which we are accustomed to reckon, yet untrue for
spans of enormously greater duration. The proposition that light
travels in a straight line, unaffected by adjacent masses, serves us
well in surveying our farm, yet makes for error in the mapping of
distant galaxies. Likewise, the proposition that nature, what is just
“out there,” is without purpose, serves us well as we deal with nature
in days or years or lifetimes, yet may mislead us on the plains of
eternity.
Spirit rises, matter falls. Spirit reaches like
a flame, a leap of dancer. Out of the void it creates form like a god,
is god. Spirit was from the start, though even that beginning may have
been an ending of some earlier start. If we look back far enough we
arrive at a primal mist wherein spirit is but a restlessness of atoms,
a trembling of something there that will not stay in stillness and in
cold.
Matter would have the universe a uniform
dispersion, motionless, complete. Spirit would have an earth, a heaven
and a hell, whirl and conflict, an incandescent sun to drive away the
dark, to illumine good and evil, would have thought, memory, desire,
would build a stairway of forms increasing in complexity,
inclusiveness, to a heaven ever receding above, changing always in
configuration, becoming when reached but the way to more distant
heavens, the last… but there is no last, for spirit tends upward
without end, wanders, spirals, dips, but tends ever upward, ruthlessly
using lower forms to create higher forms, moving toward ever greater
inwardness, consciousness, spontaneity, to an ever greater freedom.
Particles
become animate. Spirit leaps aside from matter which tugs forever to
pull it down, to make it still. Minute creatures writhe in warm oceans.
Ever more complex become the tiny forms which bear for a moment a
questing spirit. They come together, touch; spirit is beginning to
create love. They touch, something passes. They die, die, die,
endlessly. Who shall know the spawning in the rivers of our past? Who
shall count the waltzing grunion on the shores of ancient seas? Who
shall hear the unheard poundings of that surf? Who will mourn the
rabbits of the plains, the furry tides of lemmings? They die, die, die,
but have touched, and something passes. Spirit leaps away, creates new
bodies, endlessly, ever more complex vessels to bear spirit forward,
pass it on enlarged to those who follow.
Virus becomes
bacteria, becomes algae, becomes fern. Thrust of spirit cracks stone,
drives up the Douglas fir. Amoeba reaches out soft blunt arms in
ceaseless motion to find the world, to know it better, to bring it in,
growing larger, questing further, ever more capacious of spirit.
Anemone becomes squid, becomes fish; wiggling becomes swimming, becomes
crawling; fish becomes slug, becomes lizard; crawling becomes walking,
becomes running, becomes flying. Living things reach out to each other,
spirit leaps between. Tropism becomes scent, becomes fascination,
becomes lust, becomes love. Lizard to fox to monkey to man, in a look,
in a word, we come together, touch, die, serve spirit without knowing,
carry it forward, pass it on. Ever more winged this spirit, ever
greater its leaps. We love someone far away, someone who died long ago.
***
“Man
is the vessel of the Spirit,” writes Erich Heller; “. .. Spirit is the
voyager who, passing through the land of man, bids the human soul to
follow it to the Spirit’s purely spiritual destination.”
Viewed
closely, the path of spirit is seen to meander, is a glisten of snail’s
way in night forest; but from a height minor turnings merge into
steadiness of course. Man has reached a ledge from which to look back.
For thousands of years the view is clear, and beyond, though a haze,
for thousands more, we still see quite a bit. The horizon is millions
of years behind us. Beyond the vagrant turnings of our last march
stretches a shining path across that vast expanse running straight. Man
did not begin it nor will he end it, but makes it now, finds the
passes, cuts the channels. Whose way is it we so further? Not man’s;
for there’s our first footprint. Not life’s; for there’s still the path
when life was not yet.
Spirit is the traveler, passes now
through the realm of man. We did not create spirit, do not possess it,
cannot define it, are but the bearers. We take it up from unmourned and
forgotten forms, carry it through our span, will pass it on, enlarged
or diminished, to those who follow. Spirit is the voyager, man is the
vessel.
Spirit creates and spirit destroys. Creation
without destruction is not possible; destruction without creation feeds
on past creation, reduces form to matter, tends toward stillness.
Spirit creates more than it destroys (though not in every season, nor
even every age, hence those meanderings, those turnings back, wherein
the longing of matter for stillness triumphs in destruction) and this
preponderance of creation makes for that overall steadiness of course.
From
primal mist of matter to spiraled galaxies and clockwork solar systems,
from molten rock to an earth of air and land and water, from heaviness
to lightness to life, sensation to perception, memory to
consciousness-man now holds a mirror, spirit sees itself. Within the
river currents turn back, eddies whirl. The river itself falters,
disappears, emerges, moves on. The general course is the growth of
form, increasing awareness, matter to mind to consciousness. The
harmony of man and nature is to be found in continuing this journey
along its ancient course toward greater freedom and awareness.
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